In the aftermath of a ended relationship, you can often find yourself grappling with how to ever find your own identity again. That period of growing pains and heart mending is put to song on The Total Bettys’ newest single “Am I Glowing?” It’s the first track from the band’s upcoming release This Is Paradise, and if you’ve spent any amount of time repeatedly telling yourself you’ll be okay, then this is the song for you.
The track begins with an all too relatable confession: “Another week of heartache/Sharing my bed with my phone/Thank god it’s Friday/Thank god I’m still all alone.” Chaotic fuzz brought to you by guitar and drums set an unexpectedly sunny tone, as vocalist Maggie Grabmeier contemplates what comes next. Bandmates Reese Grey, Chloé Lee, and Kayla Billios provide reckless guitar solos that charge into one another and a frenzied pace set by constantly present percussion. The fun atmosphere only pauses briefly near its conclusion, allowing Grabmeier to secure a brief vocal takeaway: “I get migraines when I try to not think about you/But trust me, I feel fine. I don’t care who you’re talking to.” And as the song reaches it conclusion, The Total Bettys leave you with one optimistic afterthought, a reminder that even when you’re alone, life can be paradise.
Sometimes it’s nice to know you’re not alone in feeling alone and “Am I Glowing?” is a sweet, sunny burst of sunshine that breaks through the dark clouds to remind you that you’re doing great.
As the band explained to TGE about the track: “Our new album This is Paradise is mostly about what you do and how you feel in the weird time after you've gone through something hard-- coping with painful memories, trying to recreate yourself after you've been torn down, and having to basically just wait until things start to feel better. Am I Glowing is an example of a very familiar, but maybe not so healthy way of coping with a breakup: returning to the friend group the two of you shared, acting like everything is fine, and then going home and trying to deal with your feelings all alone.”