song: "Not Even For You" - Timothy Heller
When it comes to dating with a mental illness, there’s a constant sense of worry that comes with falling for someone else. You’re always left wondering and worrying, about anything and everything, and Timothy Heller brings those struggles to life in a most beautiful fashion with “Not Even For You.”
It’s a track that captures the “hopelessness” of dating when you have a mental illness, and from Heller’s woozy, soft vocals that drip with sincerity to a stark opening of strings that flourishes to a resounding full band, “Not Even For You” is a tender nod of encouragement to others going through similar feelings. “It’s like I can’t keep up,” Heller sings. “I wasn’t made to feel like enough/I’m gonna make you confused/Feels like a game but don’t play because you’ll lose.” Letting someone else in, particularly when you’re dealing with mental illness, can feel so daunting and you’re often plagued with a million worries and thoughts. At times, it can feel as if you’re the only one that’s ever experienced this, but “Not Even For You” is a beautiful, stirring acknowledgement that others have and continue to feel the same.
the single appears on Heller’s new EP, which is available for streaming.